Long time no Blog !!!

December 30th.... two days before another brand new year 2008.. So should i say this is the end of the year ( being pessimistic) or say this is the beginning of new year ( being optimistic)... no i wont say there is in between being optimistic and pessimistic.. that would be in some other blog... some other day... So the last blog I posted was on 10th Oct. 2007 .... more than 2 months ago... and today as I sit down to blog.... I think why so long... long time no blog... What kept me away?

Lack of time... internet connectivity... of course not....I had enough time to waste on meaning less chats... enough connectivity to go socialize in hi5 orkut and Facebook...... I had enough time and internet connectivity to visit the darkest corners of World Wide Web... So then what kept me away ??

One reason might be I didnot have decent things to post... humm this one might be a good reason I didnot blog...but how can that be... this past two months have made me realize more than what past 2 years and made me feel..... the events that unfolded... the places i been... the people i have met... every event.... everyplace and every person ... had a lasting impact on me..... i travelled ... i met .... but most of all.....i have seen the most cheerful person full of tears....

So there must be lots of things that i want to speak out... lots of feelings trying to ooze out of me... millions of things that i want to share.. but still I didnot blog... where did they all go.... did they got sucked up inside of me... buried within me... never to come out....

yaaa.. now i realise why my blog dried up during past 2 or more months.... i was dazed and confused... i lacked inspiration.. i lost my vision .. my imagination was out of focus. i became OLD ME .... who never opened up ... who was scared to express the true feelings... with the fear of being rejected .. with the fear of being misunderstood.. but today I am back to my NEW ME.... spilling out whatever comes in my head... without the fear that people might find it utterly nonesense... too monotonous ...EKDUM WAHIYAAT...but today I am inspired...

If i get 25 paisa for every person that came into my life... brought a change in me... and then walked out... got lost in the sea of faces .. then i would have enough money to buy two SURYA CHUROT...but this time i wont be getting my share of 25 paisa ...coz this person will not vanish in the sea of unfamiliar faces.... this person will not be another one of those address in Friend list of my Messenger..... one of the numbers in my contact list of my mobile... one of those person who i forward those silly mails once in a while... this person might be gone tomorrow but will never be forogotten... the positive vibes will always remain....

Love ........ Hate & Inbetween

Love... something no one has yet defined it perfectly... for me its just a word until someone comes and gives meaning to it... someone who shows you the bright side of life... someone who makes u look through the rose tinted glasses when everything around you is all dull and Grey... the bright side they say..or the positive vibes... something that grows with time...something that wilts with time...

Hate...everyone has in them....just as love it too is just a word but far more difficult to explain...much easier to express... everyone has it within them, a little measurement of hate for someone else... no matter how angel face one tries to be. The devil is there in all of us...you , me and everybody. Its a kind of feeling takes no time to develop...you might hate someone without even talking to them... sometimes without even meeting that person..

But in between LOVE and HATE there is a feeling...something that doesn't even have a name for itself...no I am not talking about the null feeling... nor i am talking about the way you feel seeing a person walk on the road.. someone who is no way related to you or will ever be related to you. you dont love that person ( nope i don't believe in love at first sight)..... you don't hate him either...

Here I am talking about the INBETWEEN feeling that you have for someone you love to hate or hate to love..In some stage of your life you come across someone ( if not you I came across) who you cant just let go...but cant hold on to it too... you dont love that person so much that you get blinded... nor you hate that person so much that you want to poke in their eyes ... make them blind.

Those who you love surely make the difference in your life... those you hate can make difference in your life ...but those who you have INBETWEEN feelings for... surely makes one hell of a impact on your life.. this feeling swings like a pendulum between love and hate.... a moment you feel love and being loved...a moment later you feel hate and being hated...all depending upon some triggering action /reaction by someone ...oscillatory feelings....black and white... positive and negative...

But life is not binary... not black and white... there are lots of shades of grey in us... and in life we dont have only LOVE and HATE.... there are lots of INBETWEEN feelings inside us... Just think about it...

imagination Vs intelligence

"INSIGHT"..this is what Dns dai posted it in his hi5 profile....it was something that came out straight from his heart.. I felt when he started to write that he had nothing in his mind, whatever was there.. must have been in his heart...

You can write great books in Physics,Mathematics,Quantum Mechanics,Genetics..and even your Final Year Project Report or masters THESIS ... etc etc with your head..but sit down and try to write your feelings...even a blog or even a comment on your frens hi5 or facebook profile .... you will be lost if its not coming straight from your heart.

In the battle between MIND and HEART..... they say imagination beats intelligence..so you know who wins here.... and for me this is true...but these days we are so used to live our life in a routine.... doing things as if we are following some strict protocol....with the fear of negative consequences if we try something different...

So as me DNS dai and AaCC sat down for a coffee this evening... We thought why not start a blog... just total GUFF blog... where we write whats in our heart... where we dont check and recheck the languages as we do while writing official letters.... where we dont check the punctuation marks and spelling mistakes...

let us just go with the flow... lets bypass the HEAD while typing... let the finger type whats in your HEART..... just spill you feelings....